Waves

It's too much. This loss. This pain. I am being crushed by the unforgiving waves of emotion beating on me. They keep rolling in and crashing. I become numb. I wonder if it will stop. I begin to believe I can ignore it. I slip into disbelief; this did not happen to me. I cannot feel anything anymore, and then I wake up again to the crashing emotion and realize the tears that I have been holding are rolling down my cheeks again.